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(I don't feel like I NEED to do this, but I want to, so I will)

Dear You,
There are so many things I didn't get to say to you, because I felt like you wouldn't listen. You used to say you weren't the type to say "fuck your feelings", but it really seemed as if you were. When I really needed a friend, you shut me out because it was more convient to you. & I didn't appreciate you accusing me of playing some type of game, I was hurt and you couldn't be bothered. Apparently that's what "best friends" means to you. I would've always been there for you and even though you said the same and that nothing would change I knew in my heart that it would. We became too close too fast and maybe when you grow up a bit things will be different. & I hope you know that getting a boyfriend shouldn't change your relationships with your friends. I never cared that your brother was famous or that plenty of times our conversations wouldn't consist of much.
I'm glad we didn't take that huge step together because now I see it would've been a bad idea. I'm not going to lie I miss you sometimes and I miss the way we were. Thinking back in that year of knowing each other we had a lot of fun, right up until things got kind of crazy and went to shit.
Maybe we can be friends that way again in a few years.


"Mix Tape"I got a twenty-dollar bill that says no one's ever seen you without makeup. You're always made up.And I'm sick of your tattoos,and the way you always criticize the Smiths... and Morrissey.And I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic. But when I say let's keep in touch,I really mean I wish that you'd grow up. This is the first song for your mixtape. It's short just like your temper,but somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got too cool...I got a twenty-dollar bill that says no one's ever seen you without makeup.You're always made up.And I'm sick of your tattoos, and the way you don't appreciate Brand New or meAnd I know that you're a sucker for anything acoustic. But when I say let's keep in touch,I hope you know I mean I wish that you'd grow up .This is the first song for your mixtape.It's short just like your temper,but somewhat golden like the afternoons we used to spend before you got too cool...