What if I go?

As usual it's been awhile. Things have been up and down, mostly down. I've just been feling like shit for the past few weeks and a big part of me doesnt know why. But I do think that some of it is that I'm just having problems with people. I talked most of them out with a few, but there's still something in the air.

"And every day I'm calling on my inner strength
To fight for something once worth fighting for
Maybe it's life in the real world
Maybe it's all been my fault
What if I go?
What if I leave?
What if I show you how you're breaking me?"

I'd like to think that soon this will pass and things will be better, but I can't believe that. And I also somehow can't find it in myself to change and I think I want to. But it's hard, very hard. I just need something good to happen, more than anything.