lonely october song

1:28am

It's been quite awhile, September went by really quickly.
Not sure if that's a good or bad thing.
But right now there's drama going on and I'm trying to be the bigger person and I feel like there's no need for me to recieve any hateful emotions.
I mean I've been through stuff too and I'm trying to move past it to become the better person that I am now. It took some time to try and be this pleasant and people seem to think that I can only be happy, which is the stupidest thing ever. I'm a human too and I feel other things. And I shouldn't have to hide my feelings.
I just want to be surrounded by postitive people with good vibes you know?
Because there are other things that I'm worrying about and this doesn't need to be one of them.

Good things: getting paid today (I didn't know today was a pay day), hanging out at centennial park tomorrow (today), hotel party this coming weekend, and not having to do crocs and life is good today at work.

You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

That's how I feel^ enough is enough. Isn't it time I got something back?

I need to go to sleep soon because I have to be up very early for a hair appointment.
Man I have so much I need to do. I'm worried.