lucy in the sky with diamonds

I'm over at Chris's and we're going to see Across the Universe tonight and I'm so excited.
Robby and Drew don't want to see it, I think they're silly.
I know they're silly.
But I do enjoy their presence(s)? They're always entertaining.

So not a lot has been going on really, just procrastinating and stuff
Boys- not caring too much anymore, just doing what I usually do, flirting.
This is pretty much a pointless post, I just wanted to write about Drew and Robby.


http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_a7jkcMVp5Vg/RvV7y2GGXLI/AAAAAAAAB60/L4hraGoB3P0/s1600-h/iphone.jpg
this is for Robby.

why's it always goodnight and go?

9:19pm

My party last friday was a lot of fun. Running around shirtless in the rain on the wet playground playing tag. That's always a good time.
Otherwise, I'm still feeling weird/bad/confused. At first I didn't really know why I was feeling like this, but it's slowly starting to make sense.
I don't want to feel a certain way and it's affecting my mood, plus the fact that people are getting on my nerves. (It's like I know what I want, but there's not much I can do about it)
I'm glad to have my good friends though that can understand that.
Like Andy IMed me last night to see how I was and I thought that that was so sweet of him, made my night.
Rawr. And I don't feel like doing my math homework, but it's still early.
(& I love talks with my brother, he's always like wow you always have so much to tell me that goes on in one day)
But the exciting parts of my day include: buying new underwear and America's Next Top Model.
That's probably pretty sad.
xxx

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Soo I feel better than yesterday
I'm excited for my party, but I hope I don't end up getting upset or something.
I'm not going to let anything get in the way of my having fun.

Something's going to happen tomorrow I just know it.
I just feel really strange.

&I can't be confused about other boys.
Sooo I'm just gonna try and stop thinking about it.

xxx

uh wtf.

It's been awhile. Here's the breakdown:
Today was shitty, everyone was being mean to me for telling a boy I like him through text.
(I didn't think it was a big deal, they ganged up on me)
I saw that boy today, almost had a conniption, he didn't see me thankfully.

Linwood, Heidi, and Taylor made me feel better.
I'm glad for them.

My playground party is on friday & I hope everything will go over well, I'm not going to let this drama get in the way of my having fun.

I'm starting to like this boy less and less, because he's oblivious, I'm getting confused about another boy. Which can't happen. Period, the end.

Mom says I shouldn't tell my friends everything because crap like this will happen.

Some people have big mouths.

I feel under appreciated.

It's surprising how quickly things/feelings/people can change.

I. don't. need. this/it.

I have so much I need to do.

Life's a mess.

Fuck.

Even though everything about this is different, that doesn't mean anything will change.
The End.

I need to stop thinking about it.

pressure!

you don't do on it on purpose, but you make me shake.

8:43pm

First off I've just been thinking about all of the stuff that I have to do and that's really annoying.

I've just been so busy and I don't want to think about the silly things that I need to get done.

Crush business

On one hand, I see something I want & I'm gonna get it and if I just stick to my guns and continue to be awesome (which he's noticed) then I should come out on top.

But on the other hand this is a person we're talking about and I'm unsure of feelings.

Good thing I have my friends to help me out because in a normal situation I would wait for awhile and then up and tell the person that I like them, because I'm a strong gal and I don't see anything wrong with that, but everytime I've done that it's just put people off.

& I hate hate hate how when you tell a boy that they're cute, they'll be like UMMM SORRY I CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH YOU...you might try to do something... (it's not always that extreme, but they'll act weird around you)

What's so wrong with telling someone you appreciate their looks?! It's stupid when people react that way. (Oh and I know he's different because I did tell him that he's cute and he said thanks, I slipped it in pretty well& he also notices little things about me, like jewlery that I wear. Boys NEVER notice those things.)

&& This gives me an inkling of hope because sometimes these are right:

http://horoscopes.aol.com/astrology/astro-forecast/love-horoscope/taurus/september-2007

& the tarot lady that I saw in late july said something about a relationship with in 2-3 months, it's been a month now. I wrote everything she said down to see if anything came true.

I'm not jumping the gun at all, just trying to add everything together.

And to deviate from that for a second, we're buying our halloween wigs this weekend, I'm pretty excited. My costume is called Sexy Pirate Wench by the way. Hopefully we find something cool to do on Halloween, because then it would be a bit of waste. I'm sure we will though, what with all of our new friends. Ok so I'm done. I need to go take a shower.

xxx