I just think that we'd get on.

These past four days have felt like a year. I've just been so busy (in a good way) what with classes, meeting people, and making new friends. I feel like I've known these people for the longest time even though it's really been less than a week. & I think that's amazing. Linwood feels the same way. And also about this crush thing, it's not full blown as it shouldn't be, it's just that I'm very intrigued by this person and although this is probably odd, that's never happened before. So everything's pretty interesting, new, and full of texts. I'm excited for tuesday. (lunch crew!)

Oh and last night I went to a straight club for the first time and the only good things about it were: I got in for free (ladies' night!) and that the music was great. They played our theme song (Push It) of the night and that was pretty hilarious.
Downside: Everything else. Being the creepy guys, all the split beer, and the whole feeling like a stripper because I was dancing on the stage to get away from those creepy guys, but they were staring.

Gah, I can't find my remote. I need to clean my room.

Love.

I love my new friends, I love my old friends, I love that they get along with each other, I love my new godson and his mother, I kind of love school scratch that I do love it (crazy right?), I love chocolate, I love yellow, green, white, and orange gummi bears, I love the fact that Brennan works at a jewlery store so I get to try on expensive diamond rings, I love that Linwood doesn't mind if I talk about the same things, I love making friends with people who work at stores, I love shenanigans, I love the fact that I can act stupid and my friends do the same, I love hugs, I love crushes (sometimes, right now yes). Today was a good day.

xxx

OMFG.

I can't even write right now, I just found out one of my good friends had a baby, she didn't know she was pregnant. I'm going to go visit her tomorrow after class.
In other news:
1. Took the license test today, couldn't do the 3 point turn/turnabout thing so the lady told me to make another appointment. I'm not really in a rush as long as I can get to school and back things are good. I'll get my license when I get it and I'm never good at things like this on the first try. Dad said he'd get an instructor guy he knows to help me out.
2. School. School was actually pretty fun, it was great being in a whole new environment, with new and old faces. English class is going to be very interesting I think. It's an argumentative/persuasion based class and that's perfect for me because I love to argue and I'm pretty good at persuasion. Tomorrow it's math which I'm not excited about and then women's studies, Alex told me that the professor is great.
3. Work. I didn't want to work today, but I'm glad I did because it was the last time I'd get to see/work with Kath, because she's off to Atlanta on Wednesday. I'll definitely miss her, but we're going to write letters to each other. & the store was soo cold today. It was ridiculous.
Anyways I think that's pretty much it, I'm stil in shock from the first bit of news.

Oh My Word.

I'm gonna start this out with saying I'm always the catalyst.
That means that whenever I'm with friends who are interested in each other, or dating, most times they end up making out or doing something while I'm there.
I'm used to this so I hone my skill of trying to block it out, I mean I really don't mind it, but it's just funny that it always seems to happen with me. Oh and to some extent catalyst isn't the right word, but I'm the reason that nothing goes further between the people who are making out etc. etc.
& Jilly-bean I value close relationships as well and it's unfair when people don't feel the same way.
Oh and I've decided that if I were to write a book it would be called "I'd Totally Date You...If I Wasn't Gay"
Story of my life.
Anyways so Jordan and I are talking about his tv show ideas and his idea was sort of like what people he's met recently were doing before they came into contact with each other. And I
actually think about that too and how their lives would be different or my life would be different if we hadn't met.
I'm basically done, but it's so strange that this is my last weekend of summer, I'm not ready for it to be over.
xxx

Rainy Days and Mondays.

Figured that it was about time for an update. We had orientation tonight for school and HCC is bigger than I realized, I'll need to go there a couple of days before school and figure everything out. We got so many papers and free pens and I'm a dork so I love getting stuff like that. I haven't gone through it all yet.
I didn't see as many people from high school as I thought I would and that was nice.
There were a lot of cute people there as well which was also nice.
Earlier today I hung out with Stella and I'm going to miss her when she goes off to school, but I'll visit her at her apartment and we'll eat soggy cereal and watch movies. Yet another thing that will be nice. I keep saying that, sorry.
I have to work all week except for Thursday and I need to finish working on the shirt that Laura and I were making for Rupert Grint's birthday which is on Friday. All I need now is to get the size of the picture right and I'm set.
Mini-rant: I wish people were more reliable, when they say they want to hang out, follow through. Again I'm tired of giving some much and getting little or nothing back, there needs to be balance of some sort in every kind of relationship.
Anyways, it's 1:48am right now and I'm pretty sure even though I'm tired I'll be up until 4.
Night all.

What do I need?!

2:52pm

Friendship gets me down. I'm hopeless, I always want to believe that (certain) friendships will withstand the test of time. & I know in my heart that to some extent they won't. I hate how it always seems that I care so much more than other people than they do about me. & even facebook upsets me because I'm friends with all these people I don't even talk to and pictures remind of things we did or didn't do and there are people I wish I could've spent more time with. I hate feeling like this and sometimes I just think it's going to get worse. Maybe a shower and picture taking will make me feel better, because I don't know what I need.

Let's take it from the top.

That's what I look like when I'm blogging by the way. But not THAT excited all the time.

Anyways so I'm pretty sure that I think too much and it prohibits me from doing things sometimes. So last night I made some new friends and I know that in those intense, high-energy situations I can be really overwhelming. It's just a side to my personality. But people don't seem to mind. Oh and I scheduled my license test for the 27th which happens to be the same day I start college. It works out well because my first and only class is at 12:30 on Mondays.

ARGH. I HATE WHEN THE SAME PERSON ASKS ME EVERYTIME WE TALK HOW MY LOVE LIFE IS.
GOD. STFU! The answer is ALWAYS the same. And what's worse is this person is creepy. Why do I put up with this?

You know what else I hate? The fact that I live in America and I can't get all the music I want.
(i.e. the 15 S Club songs I don't have, Kate Nash, and so much more)
It would be amazing if you could buy music from all the iTunes stores.
Rawrrr.

Riot// Oh my god you're being really annoying bye.

I had to work for 11 hours straight today. Or 10 hours and 57 minutes if you want to be exact. We had these computers velcroed around our waists and the velcro kept scratching my back, it was really uncomfortable.& working that long made us irritable, tired, bitter, delirious, and sort of like zombies.I was making death threats towards the one of the inventory specialists. Kath thought it was great. And after my mom picked me up, we stopped by the bank and I got confused and put the wrong amount of money in and I was on the phone with my dad trying to work out driving plans for tomorrow and I just started crying, it was stupid really. I was just ahhh from work. It's been a long fucking day.

Rant:

Why are Americans so ignorant? I hate it when people will say immigrants need to learn English because they're in America. I'm sure they probably are, give them a break! And people like that tend to think that they're so much better than everyone else, which is utter bullshit. It makes me lose the little faith I had in humanity to begin with. Americans are no better than anyone else, it's like people in European countries saying we need to learn their language because we're there, which I bet they don't do.

Something else that annoys me: when people give way too much information in their Facebook statuses. Some of that stuff I really don't need to know and people should keep things to themselves. Pity whores and sexual deviants. (which I'm definitely okay with, but not in this way)

& on the other note I just watched The Hills (guilty pleasure) and Spencer is the creepiest
douchebag toolbox ever. If I knew someone like that I wouldn't put it past me to stab them.
&Newport Harbor is a piece of shit, it's like 10 minutes away from Laguna Beach and all those people look exactly the same.
TV like that makes me angry, clearly.

Oh no I don't mind taking it slow ow ow

I really should be asleep right now. I have to be at work at 7. It's 1:03 right now.
But nope I'm just up listening to Samson, because this song is beautiful.
It's definitely at the top of my most played list on iTunes.

So everyone's leaving for college soon (and going back) and a part of me is sad about that not only because they're leaving, but because I won't be. & another part of me is okay with it.
I won't be alone, so that helps. On the other side of things there are people that I'm more than happy to see go.
And another good thing, hopefully I'll have my license soon, so I can finally do what I need to without having to rely on someone else.
Even though my car has no radio (yet) those speakers in a bag work wonders.
Night all!

I should be making food.

In about an hour, I've got some friends coming over to celebrate Chris's birthday. We probably won't stay here because of the lack of parking spaces so it's off to the playground we go. Seeing as that's one of our favourite spots.
Anyways last night I went to Ryan's for a Murder Mystery Party, it was a lot of fun. I got to be Mo Lawns, who was the male groundskeeper at the resort. I decided to make him British, it made no sense, but everyone enjoyed my accent.
I was fully prepared to come as the high class slut, but work got in my way.
On the way home Linwood and I got pulled over, which was an exciting experience for me because I'd never been pulled over before and the whole time I was thinking, thanks to this cop's flashlight I can read the horribly sad sex rumours people have heard in my Seventeen magazine. Like this one for example:
"Someone told me that brushing your teeth after giving oral sex will prevent you from getting an STD"
It's even worse because that girl is 19.
On the topic of gentials, as I was getting my hair permed today I can always feel a weird tingling down there, I guess there are some nerves connected to there or something.
I have an odd body. Just thought you should know.

Alright well I'm off to make that food
(& thanks for the shout out/comments Jordan!)
xx

I have no creative title for this.

It's a damn good thing I'm not allergic to dust. & tiny spiders.
I was at work today doing inventory of the damages and I got a cut from a broken cup and dust all over me. It was an ordeal.
Inventory of the whole store is on Monday, we have to go in at 7 and never leave. It's going to be like 10 hours or something crazy. But on the brightside:
1. Money
2. Pizza
3. We get to wear jeans.
(which really excites all of us, we're all like WHAT ARE WE GOING TO WEAR?!)
& I told Katie that I wish I could wear a shirt with an ass on it, that says KISS THIS.
Too bad I haven't got one. I should make one.

& I bought or my mom bought rather, iPod speakers for my car because it is without radio. I made a driving playlist and I parallel parked to that shit.

In other news I think I have Restless Legs Syndrome:

Symptons:
Strange itching, tingling, or "crawling" sensations occurring deep within the legs. These sensations sometimes occur in the arms. (check)

A compelling urge to move the limbs to relieve these sensations (check)

Restlessness - Floor pacing, tossing and turning in bed, rubbing the legs (check)

Symptoms may occur only with lying or sitting. Sometimes persistent symptoms occur that are worse with lying or sitting and better with activity. In very severe cases, the symptoms may not improve with activity. (& check)

It's happening right now.


(Oh and plus the time is all wrong, it's definitely 2am right now.)

"If we don't get anywhere we're gonna get to the fucking Dunkin Donuts!"

Nick and I went on an adventure today to find the thirft store because he needed some clothes.
Although it took a few wrong turns, we did get to enjoy the scenery of the lovely backroads of Woodstock. And as we were sliding down those roads Fast Car came on by Tracy Chapman and I don't know something about that song and where we were just fit perfectly.
Singing along and clutching my camera with my arm out of the window. I think everyday should be like that.
Before that rousing trip to the Salvation Army, my dad and I went to the Wal-Mart parking lot to practice parallel parking. I hate it, but I'm getting better.

I haven't checked Rupert Grint.net today, which is something that I basically do everytime I get on the internet. Sad I know, but it's not like I'm the only one.

I don't want to leave!

Working at Hallmark makes me:

1. Sing to Michael Bolton (&other crap music)
2. Hate children (generally I like them)
3. Lose the little faith I have in humanity
4. Steal candy
5. Realize how many Europeans are in Maryland & ways of finding them
(and I'm sure the list would go on, but I can't think of anything else)

Honestly it's just sad, but it's work so I suck it up. It does give me a kind of sick pleasure when I tell the kids that the only Webkinz we have are in the front of the store. Get it where you can, eh?

Besides work, things have been good I guess. I'm just kind of going through the motions really.
Something big needs to happen to throw me back into the groove of things.

I need to find paper so I can write letters to my penpals. I know there's tons of paper in my house, but I'm too lazy to find it. Hm there actually might be some behind my bed.

You never forget your first.

Well I'm not sure who's going to be reading this, if anyone, but this first post will be short. Seeing as my mother is calling me to watch a movie. And then I've got work. I desperately need to fix my hair.